Father, can You hear me?

STUCK !

How hard for one person to get over something?
1 week? 2 months? 3 years?

It's been a week.
Nothing changed.
Heart still aching, tears still dropping, emotion getting worst.

Not an attention seeker, I swear !
But why I feel that everything I do have a hidden intention behind.

SICK, SICK, SICK OF ALL THIS!

Its hurting .. The feeling is eating me from the inside .. can You stop it ? Or ease it, at least ?

Lord Father, I am so sick of who I am. I am such a messed up person. But I know there's a reason behind this.This is how You plan for my life, I will take it all in.
Just lead me through this pain, God.
That's all I want, all I need.

AMEN.

-Maine-

A Prayer for myself.

LORD, thank you for being you and your willingness to be here with me during this time.
It's been difficult lately with this break up. You know that. You've been watching me and watching us together. I know in my heart that if it was meant to be it would have happened, but that thought doesn't always mesh with how I feel.

I am sad. I am angry. I am disappointed. I AM HURT.

You are the one I know I can turn to for comfort, Lord. Provide me with assurance that this was the right thing for me in my life, as it is right now. Lord, show me. Show me that there are so many great things in my future, and offer me solace in the thought that you have plans for me and that one day I will find the right person that fits with those plans.

Lord, I just ask for your continued love and guidance during this difficult time, and I pray for the patience of others as I work through my feelings. Though I may have difficulty letting go, I pray that you surround me with people that help me through and lift me up in prayer, in love, and in support.

THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING MORE THAN JUST MY GOD IN THIS MOMENT.
THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING MY FATHER. MY FRIEND. MY CONFIDANTE AND MY SUPPORT.

In Jesus name I pray, AMEN.

心 。洞

看著你那一封又一封的简讯 ， 依旧惯例  我倔強的保持沉默 。

那些读来来显得  有点狼狽的，长篇大论的，头头是道的解釋  更是让我心痛。

聽著我的疑惑， 你言不由衷。 是这样吗？

體貼，我要求 过分了吗？   心不停的冤枉的 在喊痛

这一次   不能在裝作 無動於衷了。

九个月后，我们结束了。

眼眶红了。

鼻塞了。

心酸了。

无助了。

词穷了，因为你下定决心了。

是谁说的       “愛可以無私與包容， 卻不能釋然 敞開心胸。”

心   又再一次被鑿開 一块黑洞   。。。 

心   挤在回憶里   狂烈洶湧。 

泪   挤在眼框里   不停打转。

就这样   不知觉的沉沦在 那陌生 却熟悉 无底洞。

还以为捲土重來， 怎么知道这不过又是另一次的千瘡百孔。

那黑洞        怎么也填不滿 也掏不空。

上了一堂   悲却伟大的一课才赫然发现 -- 人越是寬容 ， 心就越沉重。

愛， 不是理所当然被歌頌的吗？

為何它却 讓人越爱越惶恐？