The Right Wrong Person

" We're all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you've been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there's no right person, just different flavors of wrong.

Why is this?

Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn't until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems - the ones that make you truly who you are - that we're ready to find a lifelong mate.

Only then do you finally know what you're looking for. You're looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person - someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, "This is the problem I want to have."

I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way. "

Let our scars fall in love.

- Galway Kinnell -

Can you define my smile? This very special person can.

Definitely one of the greatest moments that touched me deeply and at the same time cheered me up during the darkest period - last May in UK.

A very wonderful dedication from this very special brother ( from another mother hehe), awesome solid 20 friend.

May, 28th. 2012.

Once again, thank you for everything that you have done for me. All these little things mean a lot to me, it still do. :)


Your Smile

It is okay, if you are crying 
You can cry today but you will smile tomorrow
And your tears will become the flower in my heart

It is okay, if you are hurting
That is the way God has created us
We can feel everything
How blessed we are.

Sun is rising and the rain is stopping
Because your smile 
Brought happiness to the world

Now I am singing
Believing that this song can comfort your heart
Because my heart is aching to see your smile again

Let me be honest
My heart is dirty
But only if you allow
It can soak all of your tears

Time is coming
I cannot keep it inside
Because your smile        brings happiness to me

I THANK MY LORD FOR EVERYTHING AND WHAT HE'S BROUGHT ME THROUGH BUT MOST OF ALL WHAT I WANT TO THANK HIM FOR IS THE FRIEND I FOUND IN YOU.

no doubt we'll meet again, so this is goodbye for now ... Take Care :) 

p/s : this song never fails to put a smile on me.

您的当年，我的小时候。

小時候　我們的城市像郊外　我們的腳步很輕快
那時天空很藍　心很小路很寬
長大後　我們的存在像塵埃　我們的距離被拉開
有時相處很難 　想很多    話很短
我要爬上你的肩膀　我要眺望你的遠窗
我忘了問什麼樣的倔強　讓我們不說一句真心話
我要長成你的翅膀　我要拂去你的滄桑
我忘了說心裡面的願望　始終是要你的肯定啊
從你溫柔眼眶　綻放
這時候　我們的心變得柔軟　放下了父女的身段
知道時間太晚　不要躲不要散
我要爬上你的肩膀　我要眺望你的遠窗
我忘了問什麼樣的倔強　讓我們不說一句真心話
我要長成你的翅膀　我要拂去你的滄桑
我忘了說心裡面的願望　始終是要你的肯定啊
從你溫柔眼眶　綻放
我要爬上你的肩膀　我要眺望你的遠窗
我忘了問什麼樣的倔強　讓我們不說一句真心的話
我要長成你的翅膀　我要拂去你的滄桑
我忘了說當我仔細回想　腦海最珍貴的一幅畫
是你載著我　叮嚀我　要我抓牢你身旁
安心在你背後　飛翔
記憶中　我們的一切　隨著你老去的臉　成為永遠


爸爸，我爱你。

Father, can You hear me?

STUCK !

How hard for one person to get over something?
1 week? 2 months? 3 years?

It's been a week.
Nothing changed.
Heart still aching, tears still dropping, emotion getting worst.

Not an attention seeker, I swear !
But why I feel that everything I do have a hidden intention behind.

SICK, SICK, SICK OF ALL THIS!

Its hurting .. The feeling is eating me from the inside .. can You stop it ? Or ease it, at least ?

Lord Father, I am so sick of who I am. I am such a messed up person. But I know there's a reason behind this.This is how You plan for my life, I will take it all in.
Just lead me through this pain, God.
That's all I want, all I need.

AMEN.

-Maine-

A Prayer for myself.

LORD, thank you for being you and your willingness to be here with me during this time.
It's been difficult lately with this break up. You know that. You've been watching me and watching us together. I know in my heart that if it was meant to be it would have happened, but that thought doesn't always mesh with how I feel.

I am sad. I am angry. I am disappointed. I AM HURT.

You are the one I know I can turn to for comfort, Lord. Provide me with assurance that this was the right thing for me in my life, as it is right now. Lord, show me. Show me that there are so many great things in my future, and offer me solace in the thought that you have plans for me and that one day I will find the right person that fits with those plans.

Lord, I just ask for your continued love and guidance during this difficult time, and I pray for the patience of others as I work through my feelings. Though I may have difficulty letting go, I pray that you surround me with people that help me through and lift me up in prayer, in love, and in support.

THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING MORE THAN JUST MY GOD IN THIS MOMENT.
THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING MY FATHER. MY FRIEND. MY CONFIDANTE AND MY SUPPORT.

In Jesus name I pray, AMEN.

心 。洞

看著你那一封又一封的简讯 ， 依旧惯例  我倔強的保持沉默 。

那些读来来显得  有点狼狽的，长篇大论的，头头是道的解釋  更是让我心痛。

聽著我的疑惑， 你言不由衷。 是这样吗？

體貼，我要求 过分了吗？   心不停的冤枉的 在喊痛

这一次   不能在裝作 無動於衷了。

九个月后，我们结束了。

眼眶红了。

鼻塞了。

心酸了。

无助了。

词穷了，因为你下定决心了。

是谁说的       “愛可以無私與包容， 卻不能釋然 敞開心胸。”

心   又再一次被鑿開 一块黑洞   。。。 

心   挤在回憶里   狂烈洶湧。 

泪   挤在眼框里   不停打转。

就这样   不知觉的沉沦在 那陌生 却熟悉 无底洞。

还以为捲土重來， 怎么知道这不过又是另一次的千瘡百孔。

那黑洞        怎么也填不滿 也掏不空。

上了一堂   悲却伟大的一课才赫然发现 -- 人越是寬容 ， 心就越沉重。

愛， 不是理所当然被歌頌的吗？

為何它却 讓人越爱越惶恐？

Mistake.

“It was one thing to make a mistake; it was another thing to keep making it. I knew what happened when you let yourself get close to someone, when you started to believe they loved you: you'd be disappointed. Depend on someone, and you might as well admit you're going to be crushed, because when you really needed them, they wouldn't be there. Either that, or you'd confide in them and you added to their problems. All you ever really had was yourself, and that sort of sucked if you were less than reliable.”
― Jodi Picoult, Handle With Care

My Living Principles

THINK  positively
EXERCISE  daily
EAT  healthy
WORK  hard
STAY  strong
WORK less
DANCE more
LOVE often

BE CONTENTED

- Maine

Reasons.

Reason.
Something that we give ourselves everyday without failed.
It seems like nothing can be done without any VALID reason.

Reason to work.
Reason to hope.
Reason to give.
Reason to love.
Reason to share.
Reason to dream.
Reason to know.
Reason to talk.



How about give ourselves a reason not to have any reason ?
Ahh. How ironic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBOb0e6HXbs

Distance; Goodbye

It's a Sunday. 

The weather is just nice.

Yet, the mood isn't that bright. 

Especially for a Sunday like this.

Another goodbye to say, just like all the other previous goodbye.

The different was after this goodbye ... it will be a long one till the next time we say HI to each other, give each other a tight hug, a longing kiss and a face to face long talk.

Thousand words appear in my mind but none of them can express how I really felt.

Never like Goodbye, no matter a good one a bad one.

I pondered and called. 

Just because I was too afraid to face goodbye alone.

I tried. But its just too hard.

Yet, I am here. Alone in this bizarre place which I called home now.